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I borrowed a few things for the Oz costumes from my friend Shannon and somehow never returned them. I kept bringing them back and forth with me on all my trips to SLO, thinking I would drop them off, and of course I never did. So I finally just mailed them to her. I texted her today and she said she has not received them and does not even get mail at the studio, so now I have to deal with all of that. Exactly what I needed on top of everything else. 🙃 #LiveYourDream #Creativ

I had the wackiest dream last night. Somehow I was friends with Ariana Grande and she invited me to a party, so of course I brought my sister. But once we got inside I was suddenly not on the guest list for our table number anymore, and Ariana ended up liking my sister and having her sit at her table while I had nowhere to go. Then my mom appeared out of nowhere and said she did not want to sit at the Wicked table, whatever that meant. And to make it even weirder, I ran into

I am now prescribed all these pills to help my body process food because something is wrong with my pancreas, and honestly it is overwhelming. I am supposed to take them every time I eat and there are bottles and bottles of them lined up like some little pharmacy on my counter. It has been four days now and my stomach still hurts and nothing feels like it is doing what it is supposed to do. I am so over this whole mess. ✨ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theate

There is nothing better than a ninety minute Christmas movie, usually Hallmark but I am watching them on Netflix so who knows who actually made them. But they all have that same cozy predictable magic and honestly wouldn’t life be so much nicer if it worked like a Hallmark movie? Snow falling on cue, problems solved in an hour and a half, and everyone ending up exactly where they belong. If only. 🎄✨ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeop

The new Lexus commercial keeps playing with that song that says well I’ve been afraid of changing cause I built my life around you  and for some reason it makes me sad every time. The commercial itself is not sad at all but that line just hits differently lately.  #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingThe

My mom came back a day early from SLO and I had started decorating outside yesterday, but it was sprinkling nonstop and I just was not feeling it, so I stopped. It is supposed to rain all day today too, so who knows how much I will actually get done. Honestly, I might just stay inside and watch Christmas movies instead. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #Vulne

This time change and all the early darkness is not going well for me at all. My sleep is completely off and it is making me feel a little more depressed which I guess is a thing this time of year. It is like my body cannot figure out what hour it is and my brain is just along for the ride. I know it happens every fall but for some reason it is hitting harder this time. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealth

So the doctor called me and suddenly I am prescribed what feels like a million pills that I am supposed to take before I eat anything, which honestly sounds like a setup for failure. This is not going to work. I can barely remember where I left my keys most days and now I am supposed to time my whole life around pill schedules like I am starring in some medical drama no one asked for. And I just keep thinking this cannot be the solution. There has to be something a little mor

Yesterday was my dad’s birthday and since we are not talking there was no card or present or birthday wishes from me. But it did make me stop and think about how old he is now and how I am supposed to feel about all of it. I do not know what point I am even trying to make to be honest. Part of me wonders if I will feel sad when he is gone since we have not spoken in so long, and another part of me remembers he was not exactly the greatest guy. So I guess I am choosing to put

Today I took Lupe to Universal Studios and we actually had a really fun day. She went on everything and was totally fearless. It was super crowded, probably because it is Veterans Day, but even with all the people we still had a great time. Sometimes a simple day out is exactly what you need. 🎢✨ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #M

So I decided to decorate for Christmas on November 3. I know it is early but they say Christmas is supposed to make you happy and honestly I needed a little happy right now. After everything that happened last week things just felt different and I was craving a little hope a little magic something that reminded me life can still sparkle. And you know what waking up to Christmas lights twinkling in the morning glow actually does make me smile. Maybe it is cheesy maybe it is to

I cannot believe we are already on the reunion for The Real Housewives of Orange County.  This season flew by and it feels like we just started. How are we already at the part where everyone’s friendships explode under studio lights and sequins? 🍊✨ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #Theater

I have to admit sometimes I prewrite my posts just to keep up with posting every day but it never fails that those are the days something happens that I should have written about instead. Then I sit there going back and forth wondering if I should change it or just leave it the way it is. It is a circle really just like everything else in my life where I am always trying to stay one step ahead but life keeps throwing me new stories to tell. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #Th

I just saw on Peacock that there is a new Vanderpump Rules  spinoff called New Shift  with a completely new young cast. Bravo does this all the time with the Housewives  franchises too — they replace the cast, and within weeks you forget about the old ones like they never even existed. It reminds me of when they completely rebooted RHONY  with an all-new group. It is hard because I spent so much time with the original cast, not just watching them on TV but actually going to P

This morning I woke up after actually sleeping a full five hours which feels like a miracle and I tried to watch some TV but I was not really focused. Working Girl was good but definitely not my favorite. Then my mom came out and explained why she had my Gramma’s clothes out the other day. She said she was going to make a bear out of them and that makes so much more sense. I was worried she was going to throw them away. 💛 #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theat

I am still not feeling well but I finished decorating the other rooms and put up my tree and it all looks really cute. I took a nap and I am planning on seeing Working Girl the Musical at La Jolla tonight so let us hope I make it because I am sure I need another nap before I go. 🎄💗✨ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation

Today is my mom’s birthday and I barely slept last night waking up what felt like a million times so I decided if I could not rest I might as well do something that brings a little joy. I decorated the house for Christmas early because I needed the happy vibes then I went out and got her balloons flowers and a donut and made her French toast for breakfast. The house looks beautiful pink and sparkly and full of love and even if I am not sure it is making me feel any happier ye

I have been watching Boots on Netflix and I have a lot of thoughts and trust me I could write an essay. One of the best lines that hit me was “It is simple. No matter where you are act like you belong. All this is just a game life. You just gotta learn how to play the game that is how you beat it.” Honestly that might be the realest thing I have heard in a long time. And wow I am shook because Marine boot camp looks less like training and more like the world’s most intense cu

There have been some pretty intense things happening in my life these last two weeks. Big, shake your world kind of things. And I definitely need a moment to process everything before I can talk about it. So today I’m giving myself a break. I’m going to Magic Mountain for the last day of Fright Fest to scream on roller coasters, get scared by people in masks, and hopefully have a little fun while I try to catch my breath and clear my head. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #Thi

It’s November 1st, which means it’s Día de los Muertos — a day that feels like equal parts celebration, memory lane, and trying not to cry. I set up my ofrenda last week with photos of family and friends who’ve left the party early but are still very much a part of my story. Candles lit, little offerings placed, a quiet thank-you whispered into the universe. I’m planning a small lunch before work because food is love. And who knows — it might even be my last day at SeaWorld,