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Loneliness is talked about like it’s a feeling, a mood, something you can shake off with a busy weekend or a few more texts. But the truth is scarier than that. Loneliness has been shown to be as lethal as smoking 15 cigarettes a day. Not metaphorically. Not poetically. Physically. It raises stress hormones, weakens the immune system, messes with sleep, and quietly wears the body down. You can eat well, exercise, drink water, do all the “right” things and still be hurting in

Just watched Bugonia  and… wow. What a whack movie. Like, I’m still not sure what I actually watched, but I know I felt everything…confused, amused, and a little disturbed all at once. Seriously, this one’s a wild ride. If you want something bizarre, here you go. If you want to make sense of it… good luck. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Dep

I started watching Brilliant Minds  and it’s actually really good. But also… Alex MacNicoll as Dr. Van Markus is weirdly hot to me, and I cannot explain why. There’s this nagging feeling like I’ve seen him somewhere before or maybe even knew him at some point. Is that possible, or is it just one of those familiar face illusions? Either way, I’m definitely not mad about it. Of course, now that I’m all caught up and fully into him, they go and delete him from the show. Because

I can’t believe this month is almost over. It somehow flew by and dragged at the same time. I wish I could say I’m loving 2026 so far, but honestly… I’m not. Maybe it’s just a rough start, or maybe it’s one of those years that asks more from you before it gives anything back. Either way, I’m hoping the next month feels a little lighter, because right now, this year and I are not quite getting along. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeopl

Yesterday I took a day trip to Universal with Reagan, a girl I met working at SeaWorld and then at Six , and somehow we managed to do the entire park in what felt like a single caffeine fueled blur. Six hours. Everything. Rides, shows, wandering, snacking, existing. I am still not sure how. There were basically no lines anywhere. We sampled Butterbeer and I had a Giant donut, because that is non negotiable, popped into a few shops she bought a Toothless backpack, and talked

It’s so weird—all of my devices are full at the same time, which makes no sense because there’s hardly anything on them. And it’s even more frustrating how you pay Apple every month for more storage, and it still starts deleting apps because it’s “too full” and wants you to upgrade again. I’m definitely not paying $10 a month for some old pictures, so now I just have to figure out what to do here. Honestly, tech shouldn’t be this stressful. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #Th

I’m going to Universal Studios tomorrow with Reagan, a girl I know from SeaWorld who I also worked with for a few days at Six. I don’t know her that well, but she texted me and asked since she has a pass too, and I immediately thought why not. I think it’s going to be a super fun day, and honestly I’m excited to just get out, ride some rides, and see where the day goes. Hopefully it turns into a new friendship and another person to call a friend here in San Diego. Sometimes t

I’ve gone through all my stuff that’s been in boxes at my mom’s for years, and sadly I got rid of a lot of it. It’s time. Holding onto everything just isn’t possible anymore, and honestly, it feels like there’s no way out but forward. It’s strange letting go of things that carry so many memories, but maybe clearing the space will make room for whatever comes next. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatte

I went to the Tuesday half price movie day to see The Housemaid  and ended up genuinely surprised by how good it was. It’s one of those movies that slowly tightens the screws until you suddenly realize you’re completely locked in. Not perfect or flashy, just confident in its creepiness and twists. The kind of film that sneaks up on you and lingers longer than you expect. Honestly, one of my favorite surprise watches in a while. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #

I just heard about this Wizard of Oz horror movie, Gale: Yellow Brick Road , and I am actually super stoked to go see it. As someone who has always loved The Wizard of Oz , the idea of it being twisted into something dark and unsettling feels weirdly perfect. The description says Dorothy, now an elderly woman haunted by her past, tries to warn her granddaughter Emily before dark forces pull her into Oz, a once familiar land now twisted by horrors. Following the yellow brick r

I made this collage years ago to inspire me every single day. At the time, I thought it was so cool, like a little visual reminder of who I wanted to be and what I was reaching for. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

I was cleaning out my mom’s garage and came across this old Oprah collage I made years ago. For a long time, she was my guru for everything. I used to watch the Oprah DVD collection constantly, like it held all the answers I didn’t know how to ask yet. Weirdly, just a few weeks ago I found out she still has a show, and the episode I caught was about not talking to your parents. Of course it was. She always seems to show up right when I need her. I think I’m going to donate th

It’s funny how “Relax” keeps popping up on the radio lately, like it’s suddenly having a moment again even though it’s definitely not new. What’s wild is that I never really stopped to think about what the song was actually singing about. For years it was just a catchy background track until one day it clicks and you’re like ohhh. Now every time I hear it, I immediately think of Zoolander and that iconic walk off scene. Somehow the song makes more sense there dramatic, ridicu

I’ve become a little obsessed with Betty Bethards’ The Dream Book , and it’s officially my new morning go-to. I wake up, flip through it, and try to make sense of whatever strange message my brain sent me overnight. I don’t even need it to be exact, I just like believing my dreams mean something instead of feeling like random chaos. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThro

My therapist came back last week after a two month break because he was having a baby. We did our first session, and it was strange because the last time I had spoken to him was when everything ended. The SeaWorld job. Hansel and Gretel. Basically when my life stopped again. So it’s been two months without therapy, and when things got bad there was no place to put it. Especially during the holidays. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year’s. Yes, I had a good week with Six merchand

In the last few weeks, my dreams have turned into a very dark anthology series starring me, and I do not remember auditioning. I’ve died in more ways than seems reasonable for one subconscious. Sudden endings, slow ones, dramatic ones, quiet ones. Different locations, different vibes, same result. It’s like my brain keeps saying, “What about this  ending?” and I keep waking up like, no thank you, next. None of it feels random, though. It feels pointed, repetitive, like my min

Lately I keep falling asleep in short, unfinished chapters. Five minutes here, ten minutes there, like my body is hitting the snooze button on life while my brain refuses to power down completely. It’s not real sleep, just these brief disappearances where I wake up more tired than before, confused about what day it is and slightly betrayed by my own nervous system. I think it’s what happens when you’ve been running on adrenaline for too long. My body is begging for rest while

I watched Stone Cold Fox  this morning and really liked it. The opening monologue especially caught my attention, so much so that I want to go back and write it out. It felt sharp and honest, like it could easily be the start of my own movie. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTher

Even though I took the Christmas stuff down right after Christmas, it’s been sitting in the garage for weeks. I had some master plan for how to put it all away, but I just couldn’t make it happen. For days it was just me moving it around, pretending I was doing something. Anyway, somehow I finally got it all put somewhere. I have no idea how it actually happened, but at least it’s done. Feels like a small victory in the chaos of life. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMy

It’s 3 a.m. again. I woke up from another death dream, and at this point I’ve died so many ways in the last few weeks that anyone who says dreams don’t mean anything is lying. The worst part isn’t even the dream itself, it’s what comes after. I can’t fall back asleep for at least an hour, so I get up, drink some water, eat something small, watch a little TV, and wait for my nervous system to stand down. It’s exhausting and frustrating, like my brain refuses to let the night e