Bipolar

Last year, I was officially diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and it felt like all my fears had been confirmed. I desperately wanted to believe that the doctor was wrong, but there seemed little chance of that being true. After much deliberation, I decided to go along with their recommendation and take lithium, hoping for the best. But the side effects were so intense, it felt like they were making things worse rather than better. Free Britney! Then my psychologist took me off the lithium and prescribed Latuda. Over the six months the doses have changed immensely and last week she changed her mind – claiming I wasn’t bipolar after all. It was a relief, but also confusing—had everything I experienced been for nothing? Could this have all been some kind of cruel joke?

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