

Numbers
I'm really starting to want to see the final numbers from Oliver! How did we actually do? How many tickets did we sell? What were the final grosses? Did we make money? Lose money? Break even? I know it all takes time to reconcile, but my producer brain is dying over here. The show has been over for weeks... what's taking so long? #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThrou
3 hours ago


Importance
It's funny how quickly your sense of importance can disappear. A couple of weeks ago, my phone never stopped ringing. People needed answers, decisions, approvals, solutions. Every email felt urgent, every text needed a response, and for months my life revolved around making Oliver! happen. Then the show closed, and almost overnight... silence. It's such a strange feeling to go from being at the center of something so big to wondering if anyone needs you at all. I'm slowly rea
1 day ago


Michelle Obama
Everyone loves to quote Michelle Obama: "When they go low, we go high." But sometimes... no.Look, I tried going high. I packed snacks for the trip, wore sensible shoes, and took the moral high ground. Meanwhile, they rented a bulldozer and kept digging. At some point you realize that going high doesn't mean letting people walk all over you. You can still keep your dignity while reminding someone that you're not the one to play with. Let's just say... sometimes the high road
2 days ago


Exhausting
Honestly, these last two weeks have felt longer and more exhausting than mounting Oliver! At least with the show, every problem had a cue, a rehearsal, or a deadline. This? It's just waiting... wondering... overthinking... and trying to figure out what comes next. So... what do I do now? Because for the first time in a long time, I don't have a rehearsal to go to, a set to paint, or a scene to fix. And that's a very strange feeling. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMySt
3 days ago


Weeds
My mom spent hours yesterday pulling weeds and cleaning leaves out of the rock fountain in the backyard. I picked up where she left off this morning at the crack of dawn,.. and a lot of bending over. My back would like a word. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy
5 days ago


Why?
I've spent more time debating whether to send one email asking "why?" than some people spend deciding to move across the country. Every five minutes I'm either absolutely sending it... or absolutely not. My brain has formed two committees, both equally persuasive, and they're holding meetings around the clock. Exhausting. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #V
6 days ago


Disney
Today I reached out to Disney Theatrical to see if they needed anyone to work merchandise for Beauty and the Beast at the Pantages. I thought it would be such an incredible full-circle moment. Beauty and the Beast was my very first professional theater job, and it launched a career that has taken me to so many amazing places. The thought of being back with the show that started it all felt almost poetic. Unfortunately, they don't need anyone. I'm disappointed because it would
7 days ago


Offers
One unexpected thing that's come out of all of this... people have started reaching out about working on their productions. Now I'm sitting here asking myself a question I probably should have asked years ago... what is my price? After everything I've done, everything I've learned, and everything it took to pull off Oliver!, I know the answer isn't what it used to be. Knowing your worth is one thing. Putting a dollar amount on it? That's a whole different production. #LiveYou
Jul 25


Seaworld
Well... after hearing from other team members that I wasn't returning to SeaWorld, I finally got the official email myself. Not exactly the plot twist I was hoping for, but at least the mystery is over. Sometimes closure doesn't arrive with confetti... it arrives in your inbox. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipo
Jul 24


Therapist
Victory! After what felt like an endless maze of insurance hurdles, phone calls, approvals, and waiting, I finally have my therapist back. It's funny how something so important can be so hard to access, but I'm incredibly grateful it's finally worked out. Sometimes the biggest win of the week isn't flashy...it's simply getting back to the person who helps you make sense of it all. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior.
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