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A few days ago my mom sent me a screenshot with the caption, “From your dad to me for you.” It was about displaying art at the county fair, such a simple thing, but it landed in a complicated place. Since we haven’t spoken in over four years, my first thought was oddly basic, like well, I’m obviously not dead to him, something made him think of me, something made him send it along. And then the second thought came right after… why not just send it to me directly. Maybe I alre

Yesterday my mom sent me a meme about writing things down. I’m not totally sure why, and I plan to ask her today… but it made me laugh because I thought, “Does she realize I do this every single day right here?” This little space has quietly become my daily practice. Some days it’s journaling, some days storytelling, some days processing life in real time. Maybe I should actually start promoting this blog instead of treating it like a hidden notebook. I can see a small handfu

Finally back in my own bed after what felt like weeks away. I think my mom had a really good visit with her people, though she was exhausted from packing so much into a few days. I do have a little regret about not making it to Arizona to see Melissa, but so much got accomplished these past few days that I’m feeling good about where things stand. I also got to spend some time with my sister, which meant a lot, and I did what I kept telling myself I wanted to do—spend time wit

Things are in motion and it feels good to finally see everything starting to move. There’s still a lot to do, but the pieces are coming together in a way that feels real and exciting. I’m really looking forward to this summer and everything it’s shaping up to be. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingThe

Today I will be on this computer a lot sending out emails doing research and trying to get organized. It is one of those focused get things in order kind of days. Wish me luck. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

My sister asked me to make dinner for her family last night so they’d have something new, so we went with Salisbury steak, mashed potatoes, and Brussels sprouts. It actually turned out great… even though the cooking process felt a little like I was in the basement kitchen of Next Level Chef —no lids, no clear system, and a lot of “where is anything?” energy. But somehow it all came together. Of course, the kids opted for quesadillas. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyS

3 nights in a row of good sleep—what!? That almost never happens, so I’m going to take that as a win. I’ve been watching Vanderpump Villa  and it’s honestly pretty bad and super over-produced, like totally dumb in the best background-noise way. This morning I’m going thrift shopping with my sister, and who knows what the rest of the day will look like since there’s never really a plan made ahead of time. My sister and I probably look like we don’t want to hang out with everyo

Another great sleep last night, and I woke up to some exciting news with things quickly starting to move forward on something really exciting. How it will all happen, I have no idea, but I believe it will. I spent part of the day eating Burger King and working on a few things, then my sister surprised me with a shake, which was very needed. I should have DoorDashed today but didn’t, instead I just hung out, which ended up being really fun with my sister, Archie, and Gabe too.

After sleeping so well last night at my sister’s, which honestly never happens. I’m going to the zoo with my mom and her people, so we’ll see how it goes and hopefully it’s a good, easy day where everything runs smoothly. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Last night I used my “free” night at Viejas Casino, which honestly turned out to be a mistake because I ended up losing all my money. I had my sister’s DUI at 10:30, which was just a phone call and actually went really well, and then a Zoom meeting for The Mikado  set that also went well. Now I’m just going to chill for the day and go see The Notebook at the Civic! #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMat

Today is one of those slightly chaotic, very real-life kind of days. My mom’s cousin, her daughter, and the daughter’s daughter are arriving for a week-long visit, and they are coming in on two separate flights, so there is a steady stream of arrivals, timing, and coordination happening all at once. My mom is completely MIA right now, so I am holding down the fort while there is a gardener outside and a cleaning woman inside the house. My mom is definitely stressed about it,

I think I solved it! #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Spent the entire day stressed out over honestly nothing 😅But hey at least the house is clean so not a total loss. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

So I watched the finale of DTF St. Louis and I’m honestly sad. The whole thing was not what I was expecting with a title like that, and it ended up being a lot. These shows always sneak up on you and suddenly you’re way more invested than you expected to be. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigm

Sometimes life throws so many obstacles at you that it feels impossible to push through. You start to wonder if it’s even worth it, or if you should just stop trying. But maybe the question isn’t whether it’s easy. Maybe it’s whether it still matters to you. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigm

I was just watching DTF St. Louis  and they said: “No one’s normal… it just looks that way from across the street.” It’s such a simple reminder that everyone has their own stuff going on behind the scenes. What looks perfect or put together from the outside is almost never the full story. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipula

Trying my hardest to get a project off the ground for this summer. Let’s hope it all pans out… there are definitely a lot of obstacles, but I’m staying hopeful. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

So the IRS just took my entire refund because of back taxes from 2015. I honestly don’t understand any of this. Why is something from over 10 years ago suddenly coming up now, and why has this never happened before? And didn’t I file bankruptcy in 2019… so why is this still there? Feeling really confused and frustrated trying to make sense of it all. If anyone has dealt with something like this or has insight, I’m all ears. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Thea

Today was not a good day.  I’m leaving it at that! #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Today I went to La Jolla Playhouse for a little tea party my old boss Debbie hosted since she’s been out recovering from a hip replacement, and honestly I was kind of surprised I was even invited since I haven’t been back since October. Debbie was so excited to see me, which was really sweet, and I was the only guy there sitting with a group of older women which made it even funnier. She introduced me to everyone and immediately announced that I needed to come back because sh