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Today my mom’s cousin’s daughter is coming to visit, which I think makes her my cousin too? Somewhere there’s a family tree that could answer this, but I don’t have the energy to climb it. So we’ll be entertaining for the next few days. I don’t really know her, so this could be fun, awkward, fabulous, or all three. Hopefully she’s fun. Fingers crossed! #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromSta

So I gave blood today and got a free ticket to Howl O Scream at SeaWorld. Now I have a dilemma. I REALLY want to go to Howl O Scream, but I also REALLY don’t want to step foot inside SeaWorld. Apparently I’m now having an ethical crisis sponsored by a free theme park ticket. WHAT DO I DO? #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipula

Besides officially getting the performance rights to Annie, which is actually pretty damn cool, yesterday was just a terrible day. Today I spent most of it in bed, hiding from the world and pretending blankets count as a coping strategy. Some days you conquer musical theater licensing. Some days getting out of bed deserves its own standing ovation. Today was somehow both. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #Mental

Filling in at La Jolla today and I’m not entirely sure how I feel about it. On one hand, yay work! Theater! People! A reason to put on actual pants! On the other hand, there’s something very strange about filling in somewhere. It’s like being a substitute teacher, except nobody throws spitballs and I’m pretty sure I’m not allowed to put on a movie. So here I am, at La Jolla, filling in and feeling things. What things? Excellent question. I’ll circle back when my emotions have

Didn’t sleep great last night, back in San Diego with a completely plugged nose and feeling like my sinuses had personally declared war on me. But I got up, got my hair cut, washed the car, and somehow ended up at Barona, because apparently that’s where responsible adult errands lead. And then I won $500! So I started the day unable to breathe and ended it $500 richer. I’m calling that a pretty good day. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #Toxi

Still working on The Mikado set! Today Buffy came by, took one of the pieces home, and now I’ve officially handed it over to the creative universe. Let’s see what she does with it! I have no idea what’s coming back, but knowing Buffy, I’m pretty sure it’s going to return looking far more beautiful than when it left. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #Vulnera

Manipulation is when someone blames you for your reaction to their toxic behavior, but never acknowledges the disrespect that triggered the reaction in the first place. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheSigma #TheaterAndTherapy

I don’t know exactly what it is about amusement parks, but they really are my happy place. Give me roller coasters, ridiculously overpriced food, music playing everywhere, people screaming on rides, and the general chaos of it all and somehow my brain goes, yep, we’re good here. You have no idea how many times I’ve been to Universal this year, and honestly, I’m not even sure I want to count. I can spend an entire day walking around a park and never get bored. I think I just n

People say that as you get older, your circle gets smaller, and I definitely understand that now. As an adult, you just don’t have a lot of friends, or at least I don’t. People move away, lives change, relationships fade, and suddenly the people you once saw all the time are people you might talk to every few months. I know a lot of people, but knowing people and having actual friends are two very different things. I miss having those everyday friendships, someone to grab din

I’m getting old, and some days I really feel it. Other days I completely forget how old I am until I catch myself in a mirror or see a picture and think, when did that happen? There are days when I’m beyond self conscious about how I look and how much I’ve changed. I think part of what makes it harder is feeling like I somehow lost almost 10 years of my life. Like everything stopped for a while, but time didn’t. And now here we are. I’m older, life looks completely different

Well, I’m officially back in NoHo! Today is the first day of auditions for The Santa Switch with VOPA at the El Portal Theatre, and I’m so excited to be Stage Managing this production. There’s something pretty special about being back at a theater where I have so much history, back in North Hollywood, and back doing what I love. Funny how life has a way of bringing you full circle when you least expect it. Here we go! #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #

Somehow I’m sitting here planning out almost all of 2027, which is hilarious considering most days I’m doing well if I know what I’m doing next Tuesday. But suddenly there are dates on calendars, projects being talked about, places I’ll apparently be living for chunks of time, and a few things I’m ridiculously excited about that I’m not allowed to talk about quite yet. And if you know me, you know how well THAT goes. There’s a lot taking shape for next year and I’m kind of lo

Many days I honestly feel like my face is falling off because of the whole teeth, or lack thereof, situation. It’s amazing how much your teeth affect not only how you look, but how you see yourself. I look in the mirror sometimes and barely recognize my own face, and it can really mess with my confidence. I know this is something I’m dealing with and eventually things will get better, but some days it’s just hard. Today is definitely one of those days. #LiveYourDream #Creati

Yesterday, cleaning the aquarium took a MAJOR turn. What started as a simple cleaning somehow became emptying the entire thing, scrubbing everything, catching every single fish, cleaning all the decorations and putting the whole thing back together. SIX HOURS later, it looks amazing! Of course, It’s 9/11, and I feel like I should be feeling something bigger or more profound today. Of course I remember what this day means and the incredible loss attached to it, but emotions do

It’s amazing how some people apparently lose access to their phone, email, text messages, WiFi, carrier pigeons, smoke signals, and every known form of human communication when you reach out to them. But the SECOND they need something from you? Suddenly every communication system on Earth has been restored. Texts work! Emails arrive! WiFi is blazing! The satellites are aligned! NASA has confirmed contact! Truly miraculous. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theat

Yesterday, cleaning the aquarium took a MAJOR turn. What started as a simple cleaning somehow became emptying the entire thing, scrubbing everything, catching every single fish, cleaning all the decorations and putting the whole thing back together. SIX HOURS later, it looks amazing! Of course, after all that work, the water decided to turn cloudy, which totally sucks. Apparently my aquarium needed its own full scale theatrical production, complete with a six hour tech rehear

September is Suicide Prevention Month and maybe the biggest reminder is that we really have no idea what someone is carrying. Sometimes the funniest person is hurting the most, the strongest person is just really good at hiding how tired they are, and “I’m fine” is actually a quiet plea for someone to ask again. So ask again. Check on your people. Say I love you. Be the person who notices. And if you’re struggling, stay. Even if today feels impossible, stay for tomorrow. Your

I was asked to do a little promotional video talking about my set design for The Mikado, and OMG, I had no idea how difficult it would be to just talk to a camera! I did it over and over and over again. I didn’t like how I sounded, didn’t like how I looked, forgot what I wanted to say, started over, watched it back, hated it, and did it again. Finally I just said, “Okay, this is as good as it’s getting!” LOL. It’s funny because I can get onstage in front of hundreds of people

Maybe happiness isn't a life where nothing goes wrong. Maybe it's learning to recognize the beautiful moments while everything else is still unfinished. Life doesn't have to be perfect before you're allowed to enjoy it. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheSigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Well, apparently I couldn’t leave well enough alone, so I went BACK to the casino today and somehow WON BACK all the money I lost the other day! Even better, I got to use my newly upgraded card and brought home my “free” dinner. And yes, I realize after what I lost the first time, calling it free requires some very creative accounting, but we’re not going to talk about that. Money recovered, dinner acquired, and I actually left while I was ahead. YAAAY! Sometimes you just hav