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After two hours on the phone and going back and forth through the texting help with Uber Eats, I finally got back on the platform. It was a total mess of confusion because apparently I had multiple accounts floating around, including one set up as an Uber driver from like ten years ago… which I never even really used. Somehow, the woman helping me untangled it all, fixed whatever was blocking me, and got everything aligned. I reuploaded my info, the background check actually

I always think it’s funny when you haven’t talked to someone in a long time for a very specific reason, one that everyone involved definitely knows, and then one day they just message you out of the blue like nothing ever happened. No context, no acknowledgment, no “hey, this might be awkward.” It’s kind of impressive, honestly, the confidence it takes to skip over the mess and act like time smoothed everything out on its own. Sometimes it does and sometimes it doesn’t, but i

I was driving home with the windows half down when Ironic came on, Alanis yelling about rain on your wedding day while I’m sitting in traffic thinking about every life choice I’ve ever made felt… correct. It’s such a perfect, talk-too-fast, feel-too-much kind of song. Now all I want is to make my own version of it a little messier, a little more honest, less punchline and more confession. Same melody, new lyrics, because apparently that’s my love language: rewriting the sound

My life is officially so boring that my big excitement right now is reading that McDonald's is launching a new burger called the Big Arch tomorrow. I hardly ever go to McDonald’s, but I’m definitely going tomorrow to try it and yes to also get a Shamrock Shake. That said, I’m not convinced it can live up to Carl’s Jr.’s Cali XL, and it’s definitely not going to be six bucks. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #Mental

It’s scary what’s happening in our world right now. Everything feels unstable and like we’re closer to serious trouble than anyone wants to admit. I’m glad Saturday Night Live was able to scramble and rewrite the cold open to make more fun of Donald Trump declaring war, because sometimes humor is the only way to cope. It’s still wild how life just goes on with work, errands, TV, and jokes while history feels like it’s shifting underneath us. This lunacy really needs to end.

So since my entire feed has basically been Conor Storrie and Heated Rivalry content for months, I decided to check out another movie he was in called Riley. It was supposedly on Here TV, but somehow I blinked and ended up in a free trial on YouTube and honestly I have no idea how that happened. Once I finally got it on my TV though, it turned out to be a really good movie. Since it’s a gay channel, I poked around and watched a few others which were… not great. But then I watc

Going to the casino feels like a metaphor for life sometimes. One day everything lines up, you win a little, you feel lucky, and you think maybe the tide has finally turned. Then the next day you lose it all, same machines, same rules, totally different outcome. You can play smart and still walk out empty-handed, or take a risk and somehow come out ahead when you least expect it. Life feels the same way some days you’re up and hopeful, other days you’re wondering how it all d

Some days I look at the dog and wonder if she knows how small her world is the same yard the same bed the same food I see it again when I flip on the light and the fish scatter awake swimming back and forth through glass walls that never move no matter how much they try I feed them watch the routine continue safe contained unchanging And then it hits me that I know this feeling too moving but not going anywhere alive but boxed in by days that repeat themsel

Sometimes no matter how much effort you put in, how much heart you give, or how badly you want something… it just doesn’t work out. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Negative thoughts sneak in and make small problems feel huge. They cause doubt, overthinking, and hesitation. Letting them go is hard! #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Lately I almost feel like a narcoleptic. I keep having these random moments where I just start dozing off out of nowhere, and then I wake up a minute later like nothing happened. It’s weird. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

My mom just got back from Hawaii and brought my nephews these metal “bullet” water bottles from Pearl Harbor… and I swear, why does my brain immediately assume they belong in a completely different kind of adult store? Oh, where my mind goes. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndThe

Lately I’ve been struggling with my faith in humanity. It feels like selfishness and cruelty are louder than kindness, and empathy has become conditional instead of natural. I know good people exist, but sometimes the noise of negativity makes it hard to see them. I don’t want to be cynical, I just wish basic decency felt more normal instead of surprising. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #Fro

Sometimes I genuinely forget I even have tattoos. They’ve just become skin. At this point in life, tattoos don’t seem like a big deal because literally everyone has them. But then you’re filling out an application for something and suddenly you remember that to some people this still means something. To some industries it is still a thing, still a conversation, still a judgment. It’s wild how something that feels so ordinary to you can still read as risky, edgy, or unpolished

Watching Beetlejuice this morning because I’m doing merch for the touring musical next week and realized I barely remember the story and have never seen the stage version. Can’t believe it’s from 1988! Doing a little refresher and honestly, I can’t wait. Seeing the young Catherine O’Hara, who just passed, made me a little sad—she was such a brilliant actress. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #

I just finished watching Painkiller on Netflix, and it really messed with me. I didn’t realize how many people oxy has killed or how OxyContin was marketed as safe and non-addictive while the risks were completely downplayed. Even crazier, I started thinking about the last year of my grandma’s life. We were giving her little “squirts” of oxy for pain, and now I realize we were basically giving her medical grade heroin and calling it comfort. No wonder she felt good, and no wo

The last time I saw my father, I was living in the apartment I had built in his garage…not metaphorically, but literally carving out a small space for myself because I refused to be his caretaker anymore. I needed boundaries, walls, a place where I wasn’t on call every second for someone who couldn’t see what it was costing me. I made a tiny world in a space never meant to hold one, just trying to survive. One day the garage door opened, and there I was standing in the life I

I just watched Song Sung Blue on Peacock with my mom and I give it a 10. It’s way more emotional than I expected, so get ready. The performances are so good, and I loved the Chicago accents! . Definitely worth the watch. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

It absolutely poured most of the day yesterday, and California is just not built for that kind of rain. Everything floods so fast. I saw it all over Instagram,cars stalled out, people posting videos of the downpour, and then I walked into my own garage and realized I was dealing with it too. The last time this happened it damaged a lot of my old theater posters that I’ve had for years. They’re priceless to me because they were all signed. Three were completely ruined, which s

Garbage day is Friday, and they usually roll through around 3pm. Yesterday afternoon on Saturday I walked out to my car and my neighbor called me over, pointing dramatically at the ONE trash can still sitting by the curb. I had already taken the recycling one in that had been picked up earlier, and she was informing me that it “needed to be taken in.” This isn’t the first time either. She once literally left a note taped to the can. I rolled my eyes, said “I don’t care,” smil