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So I watched the premiere episode of Real Housewives of Rhode Island and I was so excited thinking Dolores from RHONJ was going to be on it. As I’m watching, I start thinking wait did I mess this up, because there is this girl Liz who is basically her twin. I was fully spiraling like did I invent this casting in my head. Then later in the episode Dolores actually shows up as a friend of and I cannot believe how similar they look. Then I learned they share the same plastic sur

I picked up this pink bunny suit yesterday for free, slippers and all, straight out of A Christmas Story, and I’m not gonna lie… I’m pretty excited about it. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Since returning from LA and having time to think, I’ve realized there have been so many sad and disappointing things over the past few years that it’s been hard to find any kind of silver lining. At some point, I think I just started accepting it all, and somewhere along the way, I lost a piece of who I used to be… someone stronger, more certain. I feel like I ran out of fight because it’s been two steps forward, three steps back for a long time. And honestly, I’ve been feeli

I have to be honest, this one stings a little. I recently applied for a job that I am not just qualified for, but genuinely overqualified for, and it is work I know I could walk into and do well from day one. What makes it harder is that this is not some random situation, they know me, they know my work, and they know what I bring to the table, and yet not even an interview. No conversation, no chance to connect, just a pass, and that is really not cool. I am all for people m

I somehow watched every episode of Love on the Spectrum season 4 today and found myself crying at quite a few parts. That show is a lot for me, in the best and most overwhelming way. With some great new additions and all your favorites returning with some really exciting updates, it is so honest and real and full of heart that it just hits you when you are not expecting it. Definitely one of those shows that stays with you after you turn it off. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealin

Sometimes all I want is buttered noodles. Nothing fancy, nothing elevated, just warm pasta, butter, and a little cheese. It’s simple, comforting, and somehow exactly what I need. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Beaches the Musical  just started previews on Broadway and I would love to go see it. It makes me cry every single time, and I love all the songs. I even liked the Beaches remake. Something about that story just always gets me. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

I was just listening to Lala Kent on a podcast  with Danielle Fishell  talking about how she no longer speaks to her dad’s side of the family, and my first thought was that’s crazy. But then it hit me. I don’t either. And I haven’t for over 4 years now. And although so of them were my own choosing…they all revolve around my Dad.  I’m reminded of  something my Aunt Lee (whom I also don’t speak to )  told me a long time ago. She tried to explain why my father is the way he is.

Listening to the Pod Meets World and they had Brian Austin Green on. He was talking about why he uses his middle name, and it turns out he made up “Austin” because he didn’t have one and needed it to join SAG, since no two actors can have the same name. It made me laugh because I had a similar experience. When I joined SAG, I started going by Erik Mario Austin. Mario is my real middle name, but “Austin” was made up, my friend Kristin actually came up with it. At the time, my

Lately I’ve been feeling like maybe the best years of my life are behind me, and that thought hits harder than I want it to. It’s a strange kind of sadness, trying to look ahead and not quite seeing anything as clearly as I used to. I know that’s probably not the full story, but right now, the future just feels a little harder to picture. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #Heal

I was planning to go to the “No Kings” march yesterday with my mom in downtown San Diego, but she ended up deciding to attend a smaller local one instead. I dropped her off and, less than an hour later, picked her back up. There were marches happening all over, and it felt like the world was paying attention, even just for a moment. I really hope that kind of collective energy does something to shift the craziness we’re all living through right now. But if I’m being honest, I

So I watched the Hannah Montana 20th anniversary special and tell me why I’m suddenly emotional?? 😭 I wasn’t even obsessed with the show. Like how did something about a wig and a double life reach in and pull out feelings I didn’t even realize I was holding onto? And it’s not helping that The Climb keeps randomly coming on the radio lately… like excuse me?? Of all songs?? It feels personal at this point. Because suddenly it’s not just a song, it’s every version of me that th

I was thinking about the last two weeks and honestly, Sheila was kind of an unexpectedly great therapist for me. Maybe even more than my actual therapist in some ways. There’s something about having someone you can just talk things out with, bounce ideas off of, and have them relate it back to their own life that makes it all feel more real and less clinical. It also made me realize how much I miss actually talking with a friend like that. Real conversations, not just surface

My mom just got back from Hawaii and brought my nephews these metal “bullet” water bottles from Pearl Harbor… and I swear, why does my brain immediately assume they belong in a completely different kind of adult store? Oh, where my mind goes. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndThe

Lately I’ve been struggling with my faith in humanity. It feels like selfishness and cruelty are louder than kindness, and empathy has become conditional instead of natural. I know good people exist, but sometimes the noise of negativity makes it hard to see them. I don’t want to be cynical, I just wish basic decency felt more normal instead of surprising. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #Fro

Sometimes I genuinely forget I even have tattoos. They’ve just become skin. At this point in life, tattoos don’t seem like a big deal because literally everyone has them. But then you’re filling out an application for something and suddenly you remember that to some people this still means something. To some industries it is still a thing, still a conversation, still a judgment. It’s wild how something that feels so ordinary to you can still read as risky, edgy, or unpolished

Watching Beetlejuice this morning because I’m doing merch for the touring musical next week and realized I barely remember the story and have never seen the stage version. Can’t believe it’s from 1988! Doing a little refresher and honestly, I can’t wait. Seeing the young Catherine O’Hara, who just passed, made me a little sad—she was such a brilliant actress. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #

I just finished watching Painkiller on Netflix, and it really messed with me. I didn’t realize how many people oxy has killed or how OxyContin was marketed as safe and non-addictive while the risks were completely downplayed. Even crazier, I started thinking about the last year of my grandma’s life. We were giving her little “squirts” of oxy for pain, and now I realize we were basically giving her medical grade heroin and calling it comfort. No wonder she felt good, and no wo

The last time I saw my father, I was living in the apartment I had built in his garage…not metaphorically, but literally carving out a small space for myself because I refused to be his caretaker anymore. I needed boundaries, walls, a place where I wasn’t on call every second for someone who couldn’t see what it was costing me. I made a tiny world in a space never meant to hold one, just trying to survive. One day the garage door opened, and there I was standing in the life I

I just watched Song Sung Blue on Peacock with my mom and I give it a 10. It’s way more emotional than I expected, so get ready. The performances are so good, and I loved the Chicago accents! . Definitely worth the watch. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy