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As Thanksgiving rolls in, I have been reflecting on what I am truly grateful for this year. At the top of that list are the three projects that shaped my entire year. Oz, Hansel and Gretel and Hallowscream arrived right when I needed them most. They pulled me out of a creative fog that had been hanging over me for years. The last few years really wore me down, and I honestly felt like my creativity had dried up. These shows brought it back to life, and I am so thankful for th

I just watched the BravoCon Christmas special and I swear I am still recovering. The singing was atrocious. Truly. Even the people who are supposedly the “singers” sounded like they were praying for the key to find them. It was giving really bad holiday karaoke I sat there wondering what on earth is going on. Who approved this. Who said yes. Who listened to that rehearsal and thought, yes, this is the Christmas gift the world needs.Honestly, let the new girl Britani sing. At

I have been watching season two of Gen V and wow they are really showing a lot of dicks this season. Like a surprising amount. It is wild. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

I was watching The Kardashians and Kim gave Khloé a bible from their dad, and she read a verse about how the tongue is a small thing but can set an entire forest on fire. So I looked it up. Interesting verse, even though it was not exactly what she read on the show. It is wild how something so small can build someone up or tear them down. One comment, one rumor, one careless moment can change the whole tone of a day. Words stick. They linger long after we think they are gone.

I went yesterday to see Wicked For Good and okay, I have thoughts. 😅Everyone online is either obsessed with it or tearing it apart, and I’m sitting somewhere right in the middle. There were definitely some beautiful moments. But there were also parts where I was like, “Wait… that is it?” I dragged my friend Lupe with me. She says she hates musicals and she had never seen Act One, so I spent the entire car ride giving her a crash course on the plot and the characters. And dur

Somehow I am going to try my hardest to fight through this stomach pain, but I finally wrote the doctor because I need to stop these pills. They are not helping and I am feeling worse every day. I am even gaining weight again now that I am not walking all over SeaWorld, and I am so tired on top of everything else. I just want to feel normal and go visit my friend Melissa. Right now that feels like the only thing I want to do. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Th

I borrowed a few things for the Oz costumes from my friend Shannon and somehow never returned them. I kept bringing them back and forth with me on all my trips to SLO, thinking I would drop them off, and of course I never did. So I finally just mailed them to her. I texted her today and she said she has not received them and does not even get mail at the studio, so now I have to deal with all of that. Exactly what I needed on top of everything else. 🙃 #LiveYourDream #Creativ

I had the wackiest dream last night. Somehow I was friends with Ariana Grande and she invited me to a party, so of course I brought my sister. But once we got inside I was suddenly not on the guest list for our table number anymore, and Ariana ended up liking my sister and having her sit at her table while I had nowhere to go. Then my mom appeared out of nowhere and said she did not want to sit at the Wicked table, whatever that meant. And to make it even weirder, I ran into

I am now prescribed all these pills to help my body process food because something is wrong with my pancreas, and honestly it is overwhelming. I am supposed to take them every time I eat and there are bottles and bottles of them lined up like some little pharmacy on my counter. It has been four days now and my stomach still hurts and nothing feels like it is doing what it is supposed to do. I am so over this whole mess. ✨ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theate

There is nothing better than a ninety minute Christmas movie, usually Hallmark but I am watching them on Netflix so who knows who actually made them. But they all have that same cozy predictable magic and honestly wouldn’t life be so much nicer if it worked like a Hallmark movie? Snow falling on cue, problems solved in an hour and a half, and everyone ending up exactly where they belong. If only. 🎄✨ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeop

The new Lexus commercial keeps playing with that song that says well I’ve been afraid of changing cause I built my life around you  and for some reason it makes me sad every time. The commercial itself is not sad at all but that line just hits differently lately.  #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingThe

My mom came back a day early from SLO and I had started decorating outside yesterday, but it was sprinkling nonstop and I just was not feeling it, so I stopped. It is supposed to rain all day today too, so who knows how much I will actually get done. Honestly, I might just stay inside and watch Christmas movies instead. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #Vulne

This time change and all the early darkness is not going well for me at all. My sleep is completely off and it is making me feel a little more depressed which I guess is a thing this time of year. It is like my body cannot figure out what hour it is and my brain is just along for the ride. I know it happens every fall but for some reason it is hitting harder this time. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealth

So the doctor called me and suddenly I am prescribed what feels like a million pills that I am supposed to take before I eat anything, which honestly sounds like a setup for failure. This is not going to work. I can barely remember where I left my keys most days and now I am supposed to time my whole life around pill schedules like I am starring in some medical drama no one asked for. And I just keep thinking this cannot be the solution. There has to be something a little mor

Yesterday was my dad’s birthday and since we are not talking there was no card or present or birthday wishes from me. But it did make me stop and think about how old he is now and how I am supposed to feel about all of it. I do not know what point I am even trying to make to be honest. Part of me wonders if I will feel sad when he is gone since we have not spoken in so long, and another part of me remembers he was not exactly the greatest guy. So I guess I am choosing to put

Today I took Lupe to Universal Studios and we actually had a really fun day. She went on everything and was totally fearless. It was super crowded, probably because it is Veterans Day, but even with all the people we still had a great time. Sometimes a simple day out is exactly what you need. 🎢✨ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #M

So I decided to decorate for Christmas on November 3. I know it is early but they say Christmas is supposed to make you happy and honestly I needed a little happy right now. After everything that happened last week things just felt different and I was craving a little hope a little magic something that reminded me life can still sparkle. And you know what waking up to Christmas lights twinkling in the morning glow actually does make me smile. Maybe it is cheesy maybe it is to

I cannot believe we are already on the reunion for The Real Housewives of Orange County.  This season flew by and it feels like we just started. How are we already at the part where everyone’s friendships explode under studio lights and sequins? 🍊✨ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #Theater

I have to admit sometimes I prewrite my posts just to keep up with posting every day but it never fails that those are the days something happens that I should have written about instead. Then I sit there going back and forth wondering if I should change it or just leave it the way it is. It is a circle really just like everything else in my life where I am always trying to stay one step ahead but life keeps throwing me new stories to tell. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #Th

I just saw on Peacock that there is a new Vanderpump Rules  spinoff called New Shift  with a completely new young cast. Bravo does this all the time with the Housewives  franchises too — they replace the cast, and within weeks you forget about the old ones like they never even existed. It reminds me of when they completely rebooted RHONY  with an all-new group. It is hard because I spent so much time with the original cast, not just watching them on TV but actually going to P