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Going to the casino feels like a metaphor for life sometimes. One day everything lines up, you win a little, you feel lucky, and you think maybe the tide has finally turned. Then the next day you lose it all, same machines, same rules, totally different outcome. You can play smart and still walk out empty-handed, or take a risk and somehow come out ahead when you least expect it. Life feels the same way some days you’re up and hopeful, other days you’re wondering how it all d

Some days I look at the dog  and wonder if she knows  how small her world is  the same yard  the same bed  the same food I see it again when I flip on the light  and the fish scatter awake  swimming back and forth  through glass walls  that never move  no matter how much they try I feed them watch the routine continue  safe  contained  unchanging And then it hits me  that I know this feeling too  moving  but not going anywhere  alive  but boxed in by days that repeat themsel

Sometimes no matter how much effort you put in, how much heart you give, or how badly you want something… it just doesn’t work out. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Negative thoughts sneak in and make small problems feel huge. They cause doubt, overthinking, and hesitation. Letting them go is hard! #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Lately I almost feel like a narcoleptic. I keep having these random moments where I just start dozing off out of nowhere, and then I wake up a minute later like nothing happened. It’s weird. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

My mom just got back from Hawaii and brought my nephews these metal “bullet” water bottles from Pearl Harbor… and I swear, why does my brain immediately assume they belong in a completely different kind of adult store? Oh, where my mind goes. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndThe

Lately I’ve been struggling with my faith in humanity. It feels like selfishness and cruelty are louder than kindness, and empathy has become conditional instead of natural. I know good people exist, but sometimes the noise of negativity makes it hard to see them. I don’t want to be cynical, I just wish basic decency felt more normal instead of surprising. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #Fro

Sometimes I genuinely forget I even have tattoos. They’ve just become skin. At this point in life, tattoos don’t seem like a big deal because literally everyone has them. But then you’re filling out an application for something and suddenly you remember that to some people this still means something. To some industries it is still a thing, still a conversation, still a judgment. It’s wild how something that feels so ordinary to you can still read as risky, edgy, or unpolished

Watching Beetlejuice this morning because I’m doing merch for the touring musical next week and realized I barely remember the story and have never seen the stage version. Can’t believe it’s from 1988! Doing a little refresher and honestly, I can’t wait. Seeing the young Catherine O’Hara, who just passed, made me a little sad—she was such a brilliant actress. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #

I just finished watching Painkiller on Netflix, and it really messed with me. I didn’t realize how many people oxy has killed or how OxyContin was marketed as safe and non-addictive while the risks were completely downplayed. Even crazier, I started thinking about the last year of my grandma’s life. We were giving her little “squirts” of oxy for pain, and now I realize we were basically giving her medical grade heroin and calling it comfort. No wonder she felt good, and no wo

The last time I saw my father, I was living in the apartment I had built in his garage…not metaphorically, but literally carving out a small space for myself because I refused to be his caretaker anymore. I needed boundaries, walls, a place where I wasn’t on call every second for someone who couldn’t see what it was costing me. I made a tiny world in a space never meant to hold one, just trying to survive. One day the garage door opened, and there I was standing in the life I

I just watched Song Sung Blue on Peacock with my mom and I give it a 10. It’s way more emotional than I expected, so get ready. The performances are so good, and I loved the Chicago accents! . Definitely worth the watch. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

It absolutely poured most of the day yesterday, and California is just not built for that kind of rain. Everything floods so fast. I saw it all over Instagram,cars stalled out, people posting videos of the downpour, and then I walked into my own garage and realized I was dealing with it too. The last time this happened it damaged a lot of my old theater posters that I’ve had for years. They’re priceless to me because they were all signed. Three were completely ruined, which s

Garbage day is Friday, and they usually roll through around 3pm. Yesterday afternoon on Saturday I walked out to my car and my neighbor called me over, pointing dramatically at the ONE trash can still sitting by the curb. I had already taken the recycling one in that had been picked up earlier, and she was informing me that it “needed to be taken in.” This isn’t the first time either. She once literally left a note taped to the can. I rolled my eyes, said “I don’t care,” smil

It’s wild that I haven’t seen or talked to my dad in four years and he lives less than a mile away. Honestly it’s a miracle I haven’t run into him yet but then again he doesn’t drive. And even if I did what would we even say in the Vons parking lot? Some awkward small talk? A nod? Then again he doesn’t shop or cook either so there’s really no reason to cross paths. The truth is some distances aren’t measured in miles they’re measured in pride, history, and unspoken things tha

It’s Valentine’s Day and I have to admit it feels a little sad today. 💔 It shouldn’t matter but somehow it does. Not every holiday hits the same and sometimes it’s a quiet reminder of what’s missing or just how much you’re feeling. Here’s to taking care of yourself even on the days that feel a little heavier. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold

I had literally never tried Spam before, but after seeing Jason Momoa eating it on some show, I decided to give it a shot. I cooked it up with rice, soy sauce, and an egg…and now I’m obsessed. Who knew Spam could be this good? #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Yesterday I hung out with Lupe and we went to the zoo. It was a gloomy day, but we still got a ton of steps in, which was amazing because I literally have not done much walking in a while. Sometimes a little fresh air and a long stroll is exactly what you need. 🐾🚶‍♂️ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #Breaki

Since everyone is talking about the halftime show with Bad Bunny I feel like I should reflect on it too. Whether you speak Spanish or not the emotion, energy, and message were impossible to miss. For me what made it truly remarkable was the way the entire performance unfolded like a piece of theater, the artistry, the choreography, the camera work, all coming together to create something larger than a football halftime. It was a reminder that music, storytelling, and performa

I’ve been out of a job for the past three months, and it’s been really frustrating. No matter where I apply, nothing seems to be sticking. On top of that, it’s crazy how hard it is to find even simple gig work like Instacart or DoorDash here in San Diego. That’s why I’m especially glad I’ll at least have a few weeks of work with Beetlejuice . Small wins matter, and I’m going to take them where I can get them. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals..