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Spent the entire day stressed out over honestly nothing 😅But hey at least the house is clean so not a total loss. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

So I watched the finale of DTF St. Louis and I’m honestly sad. The whole thing was not what I was expecting with a title like that, and it ended up being a lot. These shows always sneak up on you and suddenly you’re way more invested than you expected to be. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigm

Sometimes life throws so many obstacles at you that it feels impossible to push through. You start to wonder if it’s even worth it, or if you should just stop trying. But maybe the question isn’t whether it’s easy. Maybe it’s whether it still matters to you. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigm

I was just watching DTF St. Louis and they said: “No one’s normal… it just looks that way from across the street.” It’s such a simple reminder that everyone has their own stuff going on behind the scenes. What looks perfect or put together from the outside is almost never the full story. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipula

Trying my hardest to get a project off the ground for this summer. Let’s hope it all pans out… there are definitely a lot of obstacles, but I’m staying hopeful. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

So the IRS just took my entire refund because of back taxes from 2015. I honestly don’t understand any of this. Why is something from over 10 years ago suddenly coming up now, and why has this never happened before? And didn’t I file bankruptcy in 2019… so why is this still there? Feeling really confused and frustrated trying to make sense of it all. If anyone has dealt with something like this or has insight, I’m all ears. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Thea

Today was not a good day. I’m leaving it at that! #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Today I went to La Jolla Playhouse for a little tea party my old boss Debbie hosted since she’s been out recovering from a hip replacement, and honestly I was kind of surprised I was even invited since I haven’t been back since October. Debbie was so excited to see me, which was really sweet, and I was the only guy there sitting with a group of older women which made it even funnier. She introduced me to everyone and immediately announced that I needed to come back because sh

It is Easter, it is 6:15 in the morning, and apparently my family has absolutely nothing planned, or at least that is what I have been told, which somehow feels less like a plan and more like a group shrug organized by my sister. Meanwhile, Sheila invited me to her place weeks ago and I could just jump in the car and go and it would probably be a really fun hang, but I still do not feel great and gas prices are out here acting like they are part of the plot, because it is goi

So I watched the premiere episode of Real Housewives of Rhode Island and I was so excited thinking Dolores from RHONJ was going to be on it. As I’m watching, I start thinking wait did I mess this up, because there is this girl Liz who is basically her twin. I was fully spiraling like did I invent this casting in my head. Then later in the episode Dolores actually shows up as a friend of and I cannot believe how similar they look. Then I learned they share the same plastic sur

I picked up this pink bunny suit yesterday for free, slippers and all, straight out of A Christmas Story, and I’m not gonna lie… I’m pretty excited about it. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Since returning from LA and having time to think, I’ve realized there have been so many sad and disappointing things over the past few years that it’s been hard to find any kind of silver lining. At some point, I think I just started accepting it all, and somewhere along the way, I lost a piece of who I used to be… someone stronger, more certain. I feel like I ran out of fight because it’s been two steps forward, three steps back for a long time. And honestly, I’ve been feeli

I have to be honest, this one stings a little. I recently applied for a job that I am not just qualified for, but genuinely overqualified for, and it is work I know I could walk into and do well from day one. What makes it harder is that this is not some random situation, they know me, they know my work, and they know what I bring to the table, and yet not even an interview. No conversation, no chance to connect, just a pass, and that is really not cool. I am all for people m

I somehow watched every episode of Love on the Spectrum season 4 today and found myself crying at quite a few parts. That show is a lot for me, in the best and most overwhelming way. With some great new additions and all your favorites returning with some really exciting updates, it is so honest and real and full of heart that it just hits you when you are not expecting it. Definitely one of those shows that stays with you after you turn it off. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealin

Sometimes all I want is buttered noodles. Nothing fancy, nothing elevated, just warm pasta, butter, and a little cheese. It’s simple, comforting, and somehow exactly what I need. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

Beaches the Musical just started previews on Broadway and I would love to go see it. It makes me cry every single time, and I love all the songs. I even liked the Beaches remake. Something about that story just always gets me. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

I was just listening to Lala Kent on a podcast with Danielle Fishell talking about how she no longer speaks to her dad’s side of the family, and my first thought was that’s crazy. But then it hit me. I don’t either. And I haven’t for over 4 years now. And although so of them were my own choosing…they all revolve around my Dad. I’m reminded of something my Aunt Lee (whom I also don’t speak to ) told me a long time ago. She tried to explain why my father is the way he is.

Listening to the Pod Meets World and they had Brian Austin Green on. He was talking about why he uses his middle name, and it turns out he made up “Austin” because he didn’t have one and needed it to join SAG, since no two actors can have the same name. It made me laugh because I had a similar experience. When I joined SAG, I started going by Erik Mario Austin. Mario is my real middle name, but “Austin” was made up, my friend Kristin actually came up with it. At the time, my

Lately I’ve been feeling like maybe the best years of my life are behind me, and that thought hits harder than I want it to. It’s a strange kind of sadness, trying to look ahead and not quite seeing anything as clearly as I used to. I know that’s probably not the full story, but right now, the future just feels a little harder to picture. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #Heal

I was planning to go to the “No Kings” march yesterday with my mom in downtown San Diego, but she ended up deciding to attend a smaller local one instead. I dropped her off and, less than an hour later, picked her back up. There were marches happening all over, and it felt like the world was paying attention, even just for a moment. I really hope that kind of collective energy does something to shift the craziness we’re all living through right now. But if I’m being honest, I