The Feed

This morning I woke up after actually sleeping a full five hours which feels like a miracle and I tried to watch some TV but I was not really focused. Working Girl was good but definitely not my favorite. Then my mom came out and explained why she had my Gramma’s clothes out the other day. She said she was going to make a bear out of them and that makes so much more sense. I was worried she was going to throw them away. 💛 #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theat

I am still not feeling well but I finished decorating the other rooms and put up my tree and it all looks really cute. I took a nap and I am planning on seeing Working Girl the Musical at La Jolla tonight so let us hope I make it because I am sure I need another nap before I go. 🎄💗✨ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation

Today is my mom’s birthday and I barely slept last night waking up what felt like a million times so I decided if I could not rest I might as well do something that brings a little joy. I decorated the house for Christmas early because I needed the happy vibes then I went out and got her balloons flowers and a donut and made her French toast for breakfast. The house looks beautiful pink and sparkly and full of love and even if I am not sure it is making me feel any happier ye

I have been watching Boots on Netflix and I have a lot of thoughts and trust me I could write an essay. One of the best lines that hit me was “It is simple. No matter where you are act like you belong. All this is just a game life. You just gotta learn how to play the game that is how you beat it.” Honestly that might be the realest thing I have heard in a long time. And wow I am shook because Marine boot camp looks less like training and more like the world’s most intense cu

There have been some pretty intense things happening in my life these last two weeks. Big, shake your world kind of things. And I definitely need a moment to process everything before I can talk about it. So today I’m giving myself a break. I’m going to Magic Mountain for the last day of Fright Fest to scream on roller coasters, get scared by people in masks, and hopefully have a little fun while I try to catch my breath and clear my head. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #Thi

It’s November 1st, which means it’s Día de los Muertos — a day that feels like equal parts celebration, memory lane, and trying not to cry. I set up my ofrenda last week with photos of family and friends who’ve left the party early but are still very much a part of my story. Candles lit, little offerings placed, a quiet thank-you whispered into the universe. I’m planning a small lunch before work because food is love. And who knows — it might even be my last day at SeaWorld,

Happy Halloween! 🎃👻 Only 2 shifts left of Howl-O-Scream at SeaWorld — wild how fast this run flew by. Not gonna lie, I’m already wondering…Will I be sticking around for Christmas at SeaWorld too? 🎄👀✨ #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

I’ve been deep in Nurse Jackie  world for a full week now and I’m this close  to finishing all 7 seasons 😅💊. I know some people watch the show and just see addiction, drama, and terrible decisions, but I see something else entirely — the chaos of trying to hold your life together with tape and hope, the secrets you’re convinced will blow everything up, the quiet moments where you’re barely standing but somehow keep going anyway. It’s messy, painful, funny, complicated, and

Yesterday started with an online appointment with my GI doctor… and surprise! More poop tests. 💩✨ At this point I feel like I deserve some kind of loyalty punch card. “Do 9 poop tests, get the 10th one free!” 😅 On a real note — still trying to figure out this health mystery. This week I’m attempting gluten-free to see if it helps. Manifesting answers… and fewer samples. 🙏🤣 #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior...

Today Lupe came over and we made cake pops! 🎂🍡✨ She definitely did most of the heavy lifting — I proudly handled the sprinkles and the wrapping 😄 It was fun, and she’s such a genuinely nice girl.  Sweet treats + good company = perfect day 🍬💙 #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAnd

✨Tonight’s the night!✨ Working Girl  makes its world premiere at La Jolla Playhouse! 👠📎🎭 and I casually just saw Cyndi Lauper  like it was no big deal 😳🎤✨(Play it cool… play it cool… nope, still freaking out.) #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

So this guy at work told me today, “Be careful who you talk to. Some people — even the ones you think  are your friends — aren’t.” And you know what? He’s right. Workplace friendships are like vending machines — you think you’re getting a Snickers, and suddenly it’s an off-brand granola bar with an attitude. Moral of the story: smile, nod, and keep your secrets to yourself. Some people are better left in coworker  territory, not confidant  status. 🫶😏 #LiveYourDream #Creativ

In the words of Lizzo:  “I’m used to feeling alone, oh So I thought that I’d let you know In case nobody told you today… You’re special.”  💛 Some days you just need to hear it — or remind someone else who might. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople#StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #TheaterAndTherapy

I set up my ofrenda yesterday — my new little tradition ever since I watched Coco  (and yes, cried my eyes out… which now makes me want to watch it again). When I finished, I went outside for a cigarette, and the wind chime that was given to my mom after my Gramma passed suddenly started ringing. The weird part? There was no wind.  Not even a breeze. So I’m choosing to believe it was my Gramma — saying hi,  or thank you,  or maybe just letting me know she saw it. Either way,

Yesterday was… a day  with SeaWorld. First off, I got a letter from HR saying my last day will be November 4th, which feels absolutely wild after all the work I’ve done over the past three months. Hopefully that’s not actually the case — but I guess we’ll see. Then, to make things extra fun, the drunk guests were literally attacking the actors  while we were so short-staffed it was ridiculous. Guests were complaining that there were no scare actors in the maze — and honestly…

Today’s episode of “My Life as a Medical Mystery”… I’ve felt sick all morning from those pills, so I officially stopped taking them. My mom’s been back and forth with calls and letters to the doctor — it’s turned into a full-time job. They even called last night at 8 p.m.  while I was at work, and since I couldn’t answer, they sent a letter asking why I  wasn’t the one contacting her. 🙄 At this point… I’m just over it. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater

So I just started watching Nurse Jackie  on Netflix — from the very beginning. I never really watched it before, though Charlie (this guy I knew) was obsessed . He always wanted to watch it together, and I’d try… really, I did. But it just never clicked for me. Maybe it was the timing, maybe it was me, or maybe it hit a little too close to home  back then. But now? I’m loving  it. It’s sharp, darkly funny, and somehow comforting in that chaotic, beautifully broken way. I keep

I’ve been sick for well over a year now — hospital stays, ER visits, endless doctor appointments, CAT scans, bloodwork, stool samples (because nothing says “fun” like those), and what feels like every medication on the planet. Every time I thought I was getting closer to answers, it turned into another round of tests and “let’s try this next.” My mom finally stepped in — thank God for nurses who know how to get things done — and somehow got a $5,000 medication ordered for fre

Yesterday I returned the rented backdrops to Grosh in Sun Valley — and I had no idea  where it was actually located. As it turns out, it was literally just doors down from the storage where all my belongings had been stored 8 years ago when I was evicted from my apartment… and just a mile away from the very house called “The Ranch”  that a majority of my memoir is about. A flood of emotions hit me all at once. I couldn’t help myself — I drove by, took photos and videos of all

After last night’s strike, I drove up to NoHo and crashed at Sheila’s after a beautiful send-off dinner from Larry. 🍽️💛 Slept like a rock… woke up sore from balancing on ladders, unscrewing sets, and dramatically loading a truck solo for the Hansel and Gretel  load-out (surprise, surprise 😅). I also returned the drops to Grosh this morning — another box checked! ✅ Saw Kiss of the Spider Woman  today — good, but missing so much from the version I was obsessed with back in t